snowdarkred: (text: comic book: well shit)
i know i don't post here very often anymore; i'm trying to work on that by writing longer fic. which i'm working on. /mysterious

anyway, this is just a quick note about the whole mess with delicious and everyone freaking out, etc.

i moved all my bookmarks to pinboard, and i've got everything up and running over there. feel free to network with me if you already have an account.

Link of note:

snowdarkred: (dailyshow: jon: sadface&confetti)

Watching the news about Delicious leak and the subsequent backlash – and the backlash to the backlash, and the backlash to that – the only conclusion I can come to is that Yahoo is run by idiots.

 

The number of bookmarks being saved per hour? Down. The number of new users? Down. The number of people switching to other, admittedly poorer services? Way up. All because Yahoo can't do PR for shit. True, Delicious isn't exactly a straight up profit house, but it does, or did, have consumer loyalty. Think of how many fandom people have been using it for years? How many times it's handed to fandom-newbies as the holy grail of fic indexing? How many people thank what ever deity they believe in that it exists because it makes life easier?

 

Yahoo leaked the “sunset” news – or, someone else leaked it, and then some higher up on twitter threatened to fire them in a tweet, which also isn't the best way to handle things, 'cause dude, it's not going to endear you to the public – and then refused to comment about except for some serious bullshit statement that said absolutely nothing, while simultaneously suggesting the worst. And then they were surprised at the backlash from millions of users who use Delicious for everything from work to fandom. They released a statement that blamed the media for distributing false information, when it was their own ineptitude that was leading people to draw their own conclusions. And then they just sort of handwaved it by implying that, well, no one was using Delicious anyway, so what did it matter?

 

Do you know how long it took Wikipedia to update the Delicious article to say that Delicious was shutting down? Like, two hours.

 

I love my Delicious account. It's my baby. I spent two weeks going through and standardizing my tagging system, and making sure that everything has a clear label. When my computer crashed a few months back, I lost everything that had been saved – my pictures, about half of my fics, and a whole lot of other stuff that was important to me. But what wasn't lost?

 

My fic bookmarks. My articles. My fashion links. My research – the same research that I used to figure out what the hell is up with my sexuality, or lack thereof. All of these things may not be things, they may not be physical, they may just be data, but they're important. I've been in fandom for years. I love it. It's what I grew up with, it's what help me discover who I am, it's what got me to start writing and never stop. And Delicious is important to fandom. It's another way for us to share in the epic love fest that is free-form fandom – the rush of excitement, the surge of pleasure in discovering new things, the ease of access to things that we're interested in.

 

And Yahoo threatened that. Whether the site shuts down Delicious, sells it, or whatever, I know I won't be able to trust them again. I can't. They obviously can't even manage themselves – how can I expect them to manage a simple website?


PS. I would love it if LiveJournal bought Delicious. I think it would be a good fit, though I'm not sure how that would work.
PPS. My trip to see my family didn't work out -- I couldn't go because of weather stuff. :( I've been using the past few days to panic over Delicious and read lots of Glee fic. I just need a chance to turn my brain off, you know? I feel like I'm always on on on, and I just need to power down and relax. Which I can't really do, because my boss is an idiot who doesn't know how to write a simple schedule, and that when I say, I can't work on Christmas Eve, it means I can't work on Christmas Eve. He also has the hots for my step-sister, but I don't want to think about that because it's icky and he's a creeper.

snowdarkred: (ncis: tony: bloody)
Oh my god. Oh my god. I just. I hate people. I do. Jesus.

*****Warning: talk of suicide and suicidal thoughts*****

Cut for triggery talk; please be careful )
snowdarkred: (sherlock: text: your opinions)
THIS REQUIRES AN ANSWER. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING? I HAVE OTHER SHIT TO DO! LIKE MY INCEPTION BIGBANG, WHICH I  AM STARTING TO DOUBT WILL EVER BE WRITTEN.

UNTITLED
INCOMPLETE
WORK IN PROGRESS
SHERLOCK AU FIC

God help me, I'm using Sunshine as a backdrop for this. Shhh, no one tell on me. Seriously.


John was just young enough during the Wars for the details to be lost in the fuzzy layers of memory. )

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!

WTF SHOULD I DO WITH THIS???
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1. I have no plans this weekend, other than a brief shift at work on Sunday. I rather like that. I traded Saturday next week for Halloween, so should I find a party to go to on the day itself, I can. The only thing I really want to do is sleep and write at least 3-5K on whichever Inception bigbang fic actually starts talking to me.

2. OMG, MY INCEPTION BB IS KILLING ME. I can't decide on what to write, and anything I try comes out wrong! I've written the starts of six different fics, I shit you not, and I am hating it. I don't know where any of it is going, or what I can do to fix it, and it's driving me insane. Just when I think I've worked out what I'm going to do, it DIES. ;_; I FAIL AT LIFE AND ALSO INCEPTION. Watch me as I weep.

3. I am so stupidly obsessed with this video of Joseph Gordon-Levitt singing Bad Romance, I can't even BEGIN to tell you. It's even better when you realize that he changed the French lyrics to something rather naughty: (roughly) I want to fuck you and then I want to fucking leave you/fuck off. And he points out the Hitchcock references! :D IT IS AWESOME AND HE IS AWESOME AND YOU SHOULD BE AWESOME AND WATCH IT.

4. I have pre-ordered the Inception DVD and the Sherlock (BBC) series, because I am a fucking fangirl who fangasms. My bank account, it cries.

5. Okay, so there's this girl, woman, whatever, at work right? And everyone has that one coworker that they just can't stand, right? SHE DRIVES ME INSANE. I used to eat at the restaurant I work at all the time, and I HATED having her, because she is the worst. Waitress. On. The fucking. Planet. She touches everything, is obnoxious, and then is somehow surprised when she gets bad tips. I have a (girl)friend who, every time we go anywhere together, people assuming I'm dating, IDK why. (Why yes, [livejournal.com profile] ravenclaw_wench , I'm talking about you, Jesus Christ.) Anyway, we went out to eat together, and she treated us worse than usual, and she gave us dirty looks and really, I'm a good tipper. Anyone who regularly waits on me knows this. My flat tip is three dollars no matter how little I order, and I then add a dollar for every ten that I spend. And for once in my fucking life, I tipped someone less than that. I gave her a really, really shitty tip. Because her stupidity? Was really fucking obvious. And it pissed me off.

Anyway, so I now work with her, and she seems to have forgotten about it, but I saw her when the cute lesbian couple with the baby comes in (and they have not, sadly, returned) and I deal with her everyday and -- just no. She calls me babe and baby and sugar and sweetheart, and while I don't mind usually - I rather like it, actually - that's when I actually like the person talking to me. I don't like her one bit, and it comes across as condescending rather than affectionate, which we both know it isn't. It drives me insane. And between her being awful at her job, her being a bitchy waitress, and her constantly commenting on how much I do or don't eat - like it's any of her fucking business that I'm a stick, okay, and I am so fucking tired of people I don't know or like accusing me of having eating disorders I don't have, SAJFIEOA;NFEA;H.

*breathes*

Oh my gods, I did not mean to let that rant get away from me.

(The thing is, I'm actually kind of sensitive about the eating thing because, all through childhood to the present, everyone has something to say about how skinny I am. I've had complete strangers give me the 'It's okay to eat a burger/don't you eat more than salad/don't they feed you, lol/have you considered help speech(es) and it's just. It's one of my hot button issues, okay? I am not even that thin - I weigh a hundred pounds, alright, and I have hips and a sizable bust and all. I eat at least two meals a day and I get my nutritional requirements, and so what if I absolutely hate fast food? It literally makes me sick. And anyway, I used to eat four full meals a day and snacks and so on and WAS STILL HUNGRY, and while my Ten Weeks of Crazy episode kind of trashed my metabolism, I still have days like that.)

*breathes*

Okay, I'm shutting up now. Jesus Christ. Um.

ETA: It's not that I'm not sympathetic to people who DO have eating disorders, it's just - I didn't appreciate being told that there was something wrong with me growing up, because, quite frankly, I got enough of that shit at home, thanks very much. Not the eating disorder bit, but the There's Something Wrong With You bit.
snowdarkred: (dailyshow: jonstew: scared)
The good: I HAVE A JOB! Admittedly not a very exciting job - I'm a hostess at an Asian restaurant near my house - but at least it's a job, right? \o/ My feet hurt, my boss is kind of an asshole, but I have an income! And that, my friends, is very good news.

The SO-SO
: My computer was out of commission for a while - I may or may not have fried the little bugger - but it's back now. Hopefully it'll keep going for a few more months, because I have no money with which to replace it. Sadly, almost all of the pics on here are gone - including my icons and some of the banners and stuff that people have made for me over the years, which sucks - but my stepdad somehow managed to save most of my documents....WHICH MEANS THAT I WON'T HAVE TO START OVER ON MY BIGBANG....not that I had much to begin with. But, just in case you were wondering, the broken computer thing was why I haven't been around in the past week. That and the job. Rather time consuming, as I'm sure you know.

The Bad: I am so far behind on all my writing projects. Like, wow, goddamn, I'm really far behind. I hardly have anything written at all. Oops.

The Worse: Leto, my biggest dog, has shown signs of limping again, and I honestly don't know what we're going to do if his shoulders are acting up again. We already spent an obscene amount of money getting him a surgery for last time; if he's still in pain, we may have to put him down. D:

The FUCK MY LIFE: I paid my college tuition, looked at my bank account, and cried. Goddamn, I don't know how I'm going to make it for another year. My job pays good - 7 buck an hour - but I have no financial help in paying for books or tuition or anything, and I can't work all the time. I still have to eat and go places and occasionally buy a used book, or I might go crazy. And I don't know how much longer my little computer will keep going. Though, thanks to [livejournal.com profile] anruiukimi 's help, I found a place where I might be able to replace her if she fails again without selling my soul or prostitution. :D

The fact is, life sucks. FML.

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OMFG, UGH, SHITSHITSHIT. I AM SO MOTHERFUCKING TIRED OF THESE MOTHERFUCKING CRAMPS ALL MOTHERFUCKING DAY.

I AM CRAMPING. SO FUCKING BAD. IT'S UNBEARABLE. I'VE ALREADY TAKEN LIKE, TWICE THE AMOUNT OF MEDICATION I WAS SUPPOSED TO. AND. IT'S NOT. WORKING.

I CANNOT WRITE UNDER THESE CONDITIONS. I WAS GOING TO DO AISHA'S STORY TODAY FOR MY GIRL!JENSEN 'VERSE, BUT I CANNOT. BECAUSE I AM IN PAIN. PAIN. AND FUCK SITTING IN FRONT OF A COMPUTER TRYING TO TYPE IN MY STORY; I JUST WANT SOME FUCKING ICE CREAM. OR BROWNIES.

OW. OW. OW. I HATE THE WORLD RIGHT NOW. ALL OF IT. OW.

So. No story for you today. BECAUSE I HURT AND AM THEREFORE MAKING YOU SUFFER. CAUSE I'M KIND OF A BITCH LIKE THAT. Ow.

I'M GONNA GO FIND MY EFFING HEATPAD NOW. AND I'M GOING TO WATCH THE LOSERS AGAIN. BECAUSE WATCHING JENSEN GET SHOT AND COUGAR TAKE CARE OF HIM MAKES ME FEEL BETTER, OKAY?

OW.

(And yes, I am aware of my irrationality. And I don't care. Because I HURT, ow.)


ETA: DRUGS ARE AWESOME.
snowdarkred: (ncis: tony: bloody)

One day, I'm going to lose my shit and kill someone.

I'm sure you've all heard me rant at some point about my Shitty Childhood, though I add the same disclaimer every time – AKA, I know that there are definitely people out there who've had worse; I even know several of those people. I'm even friends with some of those people. But that doesn't mean that my childhood was fun or easy going or, goddammit, enjoyable. Fuck no.

I bring this up now because I just lost control of myself and got super pissed at my mom, and started crying because that's my response to being emotional, because of something that she said, which is still burning at me. Because, seriously, what the actual fuck!?!?

What happened: One of my good friends got a tattoo. Just a little one, just below her collarbone. It's her favorite line from her favorite song by her favorite band. And it has personal significance to her. And my mother and I have talked in the past about tattoos and the one my mom wants. So I showed her the pic of it (here) and my mom's response was...less than encouraging. Basically it was, 'Oh, look at what the freak girl did now, why is my daughter friends with her?'

My response: RAGE.

Con-chan has helped me through some seriously tough shit, shit that my mother refused to see and buried her head in the sand about because that was easier than seeing proof of how her husband's behavior fucked me over. Con-chan (aka, Zoe) introduced me to the people who saved my fucking life. And Mom's response was THAT? Fuck that. Why is her 'spirit animal turtle' better than three words? Why does her symbol of self expression mean more than Zoe's?

(To top it all off, my mother has gotten her bellybutton pierced at some point, and the only reason she took it out was because there was some sort of problem with it. That's right, she got her BELLYBUTTON pierced.)

And I probably wouldn't have lost it so much if she wasn't like that TO ALL MY FRIENDS. Which is why, in HS, no one wanted to come over to my house. When you're face with hate everyday at school, you don't want to hang out at a place where it's obvious someone is judging you. Mom likes to think that she's this liberal and accepting person just because she's ~bisexual and lived with a woman for seven years, but she turns her nose up at everyone who doesn't fit into a box. Even now, if I try to wear my fox hat (NOT made of fox, but an orange hat with ears) anywhere near her, she'll refuse to be seen with me in public. Because what random ass people we don't know really fucking matter.

(EX: I was telling her about the awesomeness that is Misha Collins life, and I got to the bit about he and his wife's recommitment ceremony (which was adorable) and her reaction was 'That's weird and strange and uh'. (For those that don't know, his wife dress in a suit and he dressed in a wedding dress. With makeup.) I didn't even mention that his wife wrote a practical guide to living in a threesome and making it work. So much for your ~bisexual understanding, Mom. And I say this a bisexual.)

And the thing that makes me RAGE is that she DOESN'T KNOW ZOE. Because she doesn't want to. Because she sees Zoe's hair and her jewelry and the fact that she doesn't care about what other people think, and she has a DO NOT WANT reaction that makes me what to hit something. Zoe SAVED MY LIFE by being there for me. Zoe defended me against people who wanted to hurt me. Zoe was there when I needed her. Mom? Nope.

My stepfather tells me repeatedly for years that I'm a horrible human being incapable of feeling love? She does nothing. Zoe? Holds me when I cry for two hours straight every few weeks.

I have a panic attack because there are just too many damn people around me and I can't fucking breath? Mom tells me to get over it because she can't see what the problem is. Zoe? Tells everyone to fuck off and makes sure that there's always someone I know next to me so that I have someone to clutch at.

Stepfather punches a hole in my wall because I didn't fold his pants right? Mom asks me 'Why do you have to make him so angry?' Zoe? Offers me a place to stay.

And my mother wondered why I got emotional when she called Zoe a freak. Zoe may not care, but I can't stand to see someone who's done THAT MUCH for me completely dismissed by someone who doesn't know her and makes it clear that she doesn't WANT to know her.

I wonder how Mom is going to react when I get flectere si nequeo superos, achaeronta movebo (translates as If I cannot move Heaven, I will raise Hell) tattooed on my back.

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As I said in this post, CBS, as well as canceling two hit dramas head by women - Ghost Whisperer and Cold Case - and raising Charlie Sheen's (yes, domestic violence Charlie Sheen) paycheck, is casting aside long-time cast member AJ Cook and significantly reducing the episode number of co-star Paget Brewster. That is, the only full time female cast member who will be left will be Kirsten Vangsness. The network announced that a new female character will be introduced - because it's obvious that female characters are easily interchangeable - and AJ Cook will be given one episode in which to rap up her five-year stint on the show.

One episode. After five seasons, she will have ONE EPISODE to give us a 'believable' reason for JJ to run off into the sunset? And you just know that she's going to get shot or something. Because CBS is full of dicks like that.

CBS is the same network that runs NCIS, a show that has its own host of feminism problems - any issues that you (and most definitely I) have with Ziva David aside. The NCIS track record: Kate was shot by Ari, Jenny was murdered, Michelle turned out to be a traitor, the Jeanne fiasco, and the entire Ziva plot line.... Ahem. Yeah, good job there.

And then there's the mess that it CSI, but that's so expansive and convoluted that I don't think I can do it justice without either boring myself to death or getting very, very angry. And you won't like me when I'm angry.

What is with television these days? What happened? It seemed like we were heading in the right direction, but then all this happens?

You know what, FUCK YOU, CBS. Assholes. Give us back our strong, awesome, competent, non-crazy, kick-ass, mature, intelligent, amazing role-models!

A pic I put together to support AJ Cook and Paget Brewster:
Photobucket

Sign the petition
here. (It has 37,297 signatures as I am posting this right now. 37,297!!)
Leave hatemail comments to CBS here.
See the media backlash
here.
See the fan backlash here.

ETA: FIVE MINUTES LATER!!! - 37,315!
ETA: 10:19PM - 37,641 signatures!!!
ETA:  41,051!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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The character roles of Special Agent "JJ" Jereau is being cut entirely, and the role of Emily Prentiss is being significantly reduced to the point of not even appearing in every episode.

Criminal Minds is famous for its balanced cast, but the show is making cuts to the female characters only - not, they assure us, for financial reasons, but for 'creative' ones. This is disheartening and disappointing. I really love this series, but I will not be able to support them if they do this. None of the male actors took pay cuts or role cuts, even though I'm sure they would be glad to if it meant keeping their coworkers. The cast seems close; they can't be happy about this. I am not happy about this.


Criminal Minds Trims Cast  Article about the cut.
Keep AJ Cook & Paget Brewster on Criminal Minds! Petition  A petition to keep AJ and Paget on the show as is.
CBS feedback form A way to send hatemail feedback to CBS about this change.

This is what I wrote to CBS:

Subject: Criminal Minds

You are cutting the role of JJ and limiting the role of Prentiss in your hit show Criminal Minds. If this happens, I will gladly stop watching. I'm a woman, and watching a show that does not marginalize women in the work place, and that shows them as having the same feelings and strengths and weakness as men - a show that does not pat them on the head and tell them to go home - is what kept bring me back again and again. It's what makes me buy merchandise and support advertisers. But if this new move goes forward - if you decide to 'take a new creative direction' by cutting the roles of two-thirds of your female cast - I will just as gladly take my money elsewhere.

The may not seem like much to you, but there are a huge number of fans just as angry as I am over this move. Your show has a winning formula, one that brings fans together and gets them to support you. I don't think you realize how much of your audience is female - and that that fact does mean that they want to see their role-models and inspirations disappear in favor of a male cast.

This is disappointing personally, as a woman, and as  fan. You are making an unnecessary change to something that works. You have millions of fans who tune in everyday to watch your show. I can guarantee that if you go through with this, you will have at least one less.

Please, if you're a fan of Criminal Minds and don't want to see two strong, independent female characters go, please write them and express this. Maybe we can save this situation, or at least cause enough of a fuss that no one will ever want to do it again.

SAVE EMILY AND JJ! SAVE AJ AND PAGET! SAVE THE WOMEN OF CRIMINAL MINDS!
snowdarkred: (gundam wing: lady une)
My neighbors are setting off fireworks. It's rather annoying.

Also, I hate any and all Axe commercials. That shit smells nasty, and their commercials are awful in more than one way.
snowdarkred: (bloody)
I know, I know, I've already mentioned this a few times, but... Amy responded to criticism about her 'advice' to a rape victim. (Once again, the bold is mine):

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"I assume the guy had also been drinking." )
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Just...no. I'm going to go...do something else. Something soothing. Meditation's soothing, right?
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I put this up on my facebook, but I'm posting it here too. This makes me sick.

I'm talking about a Dear Amy column at the Chicago Tribune that was published on November 27, 2009. A girl wrote in and.... I'm just going to copy and paste because I'm shaking with anger and I can' even type:

(The bold emphasis is mine.)

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An Advice Columnist says that the girl should approach her rapist to ask if he raped her. Seriously. D:< )

Oh my fucking god, really? Really? I can't even begin to say how many things are wrong with this response. 'Amy' says that, yes, the girl was raped and then turned around and blamed it on her drinking. I.... This makes me want to punch 'Amy' in the face. Repeatedly. She blames the victim and then tells the girl to approach her rapist to confirm that he raped her. Because he obviously won't either deny it or try to silence her.

The 'advice' can be found HERE. Please send this woman hate mail. I'm not even kidding. I usually don't advocate that kind of action, but to say this in print to a young woman, plus all of the other women who read this....

Rape is never the victim's fault, nor is it about sex. It's about control, and for this woman to print this and call it 'advice'....

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