i really loved this. i loved how poetic it was, throughout. so well written, both overall and the poetry of individual sentences and paragraphs. i thought the perspective and having the timeline out of order really worked. i loved reading so much about chris's past in this and of course his relationship with zach which, though only a few things, seemed real and nice. and i really enjoyed reading your thoughts behind writing this, and i totally understand the evolution of a fic like this and how long it takes and how it comes in bits and pieces, and how darker themes are so interesting to explore even if it hurts to write it, and it's like you're not even in control of where the story goes. so thanks so much for sharing both the fic itself and your thoughts on writing it.