STXI RPF Fic: Lost Boy (the stars breathe in the empty spaces), Master Post

[snowdarkred]

Title: Lost Boy (the stars breathe in the empty spaces)
Author: snowdarkred 
Word Count: ~11+ K
Paring: Chris Pine/Zachary Quinto, Chris Pine/Others
Rating: Hard R
Warnings: highlight to read | past rape of a minor, depression, prostitution. also, semi-experimental prose style. also some underage alcohol abuse and smoking (cigarettes) |

Author's Note: This story is written from a limited third-person perspective, from the point of view of Chris Pine. Chris does not refer to himself by name in the prose, though other characters do call him by it when they are speaking to him. Chris is a very fucked up young man who has a lot of problems. This story is a journey, one that takes us from Chris's childhood to his awakening. It is written out of order, with parts that (hopefully) slot together to form a coherent whole. I've been working on this monster for almost nine months. It's my baby, one that I am almost hesitant to share due to how high my emotions were during the process. I poured everything into this fic, and I hope you enjoy it half as much as I do. See this post for further commentary.

Summary: Semi-AU. Chris Pine is broken and has been for a while. But the fragments of his life are slowly coming together, and Chris begins to slowly put his life in order. All his has to do is keep reaching up for the stars and learn to trust again.

“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”
     -- Oscar Wilde, “Lady Windermere's Fan”

 

Lost Boy (the stars breathe in the empty spaces)



Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Author's Note

Comments

[wordflake.livejournal.com]

So fucking beautiful. Just ... this most be the best Chris centered fic I've ever read. Normally I'm more for Zach, but you really, really, really managed to write such a believable characterization of a broken version of Chris.

Even though the fic jumps between different timelines and everything is so hard to understand and so human, it was still so easy to ... I don't know, feel. It's easy to imagine that this story took ages to write and really was a challenge, it's that kind of story. God, I really can't say how truly amazing this was. But you must know, this is just amazing.

I read your author's note, and I just come to think about one thing when I read about your own history. I have a friend who have had a tough childhood. Let's just say that it all involves her parents, mysterious bruises and foster homes. And she is one of the strongest and kindest people I know, and she's such a good writer. I don't think that every good author have had difficulties in life, but it seems that the ones who've been through a lot and survived it (in some way or another) have something special in them. I admire her so much, because even though I know that everything still isn't alright and she's hurting, I think it's such an achievement to be the lovely person she is and to be able to write about it.

Aah, sorry for the rambling, but your fic really got me thinking.

Amazing.

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

Wow! Thank you so much for your wonderful, wonderful comment. Thank you for reading.

I've wondered about the connection of the path a writer takes in life and it's connection to their actual writing. It seems that there are so many brilliant authors and storytellers who create amazing things, and I think that one of the reasons that they are able to do it is that they know the power of human nature, both good and bad. The drama of the human experience is what brings people together, and authors provide that.

<3

[wordflake.livejournal.com]

The human mind really is fascinating.

<3

[bleedingdagger.livejournal.com]

This was simply breathtaking. I don't think I have the words to even explain how wonderful I found your story.

<3

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[(Anonymous)]

I don't really comment on anything (I'm a bit of a lurker) but this really took my breath away. And it did it in a way other fics I've liked haven't. I kind of want to curl up around this fic and take it with me wherever I go.

Thank you for giving me (and the internet) such a wonderful heartfelt work. =^)

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

I don't know if you're going to get this reply, anon, but I wanted to say how much I appreciated your comment. This is probably my favorite fic of all the ones I've written, and I can't help but feel proud that it touched you in some way. Thank you for commenting. <3