Why does the world suck so much?

[snowdarkred]

I think...I think that sometimes I forget how stupid people are.

It's just: Between my friends, who are pretty much 'whatever makes you happy' about 97% of things, and all the wonderful people on LJ, I just I don't think about how fucking moronic and ignorant the average person is.

I hate people. I just, I do. They're fucking crazy and stupid and blind.

Okay, so we did a little bit on gender roles and gender identity and so on, and my teacher's painful hetronormative views aside - she's not being directly hateful, just oblivious - we watched a clip from the Today Show, about the boy who dressed up as Daphne for Halloween.

And during discussion, someone said, I shit you not, "It'd be okay for a boy to dress in girly stuff at home, but I wouldn't allow them to go out looking like that."

There was some other stuff too, like how boys wanting to dress as girls would 'grow out of it' and so on, and I desperately wanted to shout about how it didn't fucking matter whether it was a brief period or a permenent desire or what the fuck ever. If the kid wants to wear a fucking dress, s/he can wear a fucking dress.

I'm just so used to fandom being generally awesome about stuff like this. I mean, yeah, people put their foot in it, but here, on LJ and FF and DA and tumblr and all of our other ways to connect and talk and learn from each other, it's so much easier.

Y'all are wonderful, wonderful people, and I love you all. Don't ever leave me. ;_;

It does make me wonder, though, something that I think about from time to time: What would my life be like if I'd never found fandom? I got into fandom fairly young - I was about eleven/twelve-ish - and I just, y'know, grew up with it. Fandom is how I finally figured out why I have never in my life wanted to have sexual contact with anyone. I just kept waiting and waiting and waiting for that whole 'right person' bullshit, and you know what? That person is most likely not going to appear in my life because they don't exist. I mean, if I ever meet someone and all I can think is 'Jesus Christ, I want to bang them so hard' than fine. Okay. I'm cool with that. But at the moment, I don't think it's ever going to happen.

Without fandom, I can't think of a way that I would discover anything real about asexuality. I mean, there are two - two - identified asexuals on television, and one of them is Sheldon, for God's sake. There would be no way for me to find someone in the media and go, Huh, well that fits. And I don't even want to know what my psych class would say if I were to stand up and say, Hey, I'm asexual. I mean, it'd probably be something like 'Oh, you're broken; you'll get over it' or something. D:

I... came out? as an asexual in fandom and the reaction was 'Meh. Awesome for you. Now when are you going to finish that fucking story you owe us!' It's awesome.

So yeah. I  love you guys. And I am so fucking glad I found fandom because you make my life so much better. Thank the gods people like you exist.

Comments

[shanachie-quill.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

*kicks the asses of your classmates*

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

:D Thank you. It's more like, IDK, annoyance? than anything, because I have had people say far, far worse things to me. I just dislike hearing how people are going to fuck up their kids by implying that they have to be ashamed of shit like this. D:

And seriously? The mom with the little boy who dressed up like Daphne from Scoobie-Doo is kind of my hero right now, along with the woman who wrote the My Princess Boy. Awesomesauce for them. :D

Just, really, I just hate humanity sometimes. :/ People are stupid. Ugh.

[shanachie-quill.livejournal.com]

Yeah I can understand that.

Aw I didn't click the links (I'm messing with downloads). I didn't realize it was a little boy. It is so cool that they're just letting their little guys be what they need/want to be.

Well yeah...people are totally stupid.

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

PAINFULLY STUPID.

And ugh, next class I get to find out how badly I buggered by last test. D: OH JOY~

What are you downloading now? It seems like you are forever downloading, downloading, downloading. (Also, I just typed that entire sentence while looking away. I feel oddly proud of myself. :3 Wow, I am lame.)

[shanachie-quill.livejournal.com]

I know you find out about your test...you'll have to let me know.

Christmas music. Sometimes I am...not always...you just happen to catch me when I am. This is the first time I have in a while.

LOL I did a whole paragraph without looking once and freaked out my momo. She hates that I can type and not look.

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

I'm kind of panicking about it, tbh. I got a 75 on the last test in this class. Ugh. I don't like doing badly, okay? You know how neurotic I am.

XD Christmas music? Traditional or modern?

I taught myself how to to type when I started writing regularly. It's just sort of happened. :3 How I can take diction pretty damn fast if I don't think about the mechanics of what I'm doing. Does that make sense? It's all muscle memory. :3

[shanachie-quill.livejournal.com]

I know and it's all right. I completely understand. I actually trained myself not to freak out about it because of certain things...but well that's my hang up.

A lot of everything? I actually gave up on them and am just doing the last of the links I've opened because I'm getting a headache from looking at the little tiny print and trying to differentiate between the titles and artists. Seriously like 600 songs per page.

I understand completely. To graduate my high school (on a college track) you had to be able to type 120 words per minute without looking. And yes it's all muscle memory. I'm not as fast as I used to be but I'm still pretty good.

[erkn.livejournal.com]

I totally understand how you feel. I go to a private Catholic college, and in my friend group we have an asexual, two gay men, a lesbian, and a bisexual (plus the however-many heterosexuals). People at our school aren't cruel, necessarily, but they're ignorant.

Don't worry about those people, they aren't worth your time and energy. :)

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

I know, I know, it's just hard when I know that they're saying something stupid and I can't say anything because I don't want to get into a war with yet another teacher. :/ I kind of fail diplomacy forever, so it wouldn't be pretty.

<3 That sounds like my friend group, only we have more bisexuals and lesbians since we originated as a GSA. We had to fight the school admin for it, too, because they didn't 'want us to be bullied', or, as was actually the case, 'draw attention to the fact that there are gay people in the school!' :O *gasp*

*rolls eyes* People.

<3

[pprfaith.livejournal.com]

So, hi. I came for the fic, but I think I might just hang around, if you don't mind me because that entire post? Hand me a pen and I'll sign my name under it. So very, very true.

(But who's the other asexual on tv?)

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

Hi! I'd be glad to have you around; the more the merrier! :D

Okay, so I couldn't remember where I'd seen the two asexual characters thing, so I went off and did some digging and found this. While it's a short list, due to the depressing lack of representation, I think that some of them could be argued against - for example, Holmes in Sherlock (BBC) implies that he's either gay or asexual, but he doesn't 'come out' as either. The others listed are the Doctor, from Doctor Who, who is an alien, so he doesn't really count?

Not that I'm being demeaning towards aliens who don't have sex with humans, but it's just not the same. Aliens who don't want to bang humans makes total sense, and the Doctor is supposed to be the ~last of his kind, so. *is not in the DW fandom and therefore is probably sticking her foot in it*

Others listed include a serial killer (Dexter), a New Zealand show, and a few anime shows. As far as I know, only Sheldon and the chick from Huge have had 'coming out' scenes - I think. I might be forgetting something/someone.

More representation would be good. Ahem.

/too much information

And now that I've probably scared you off..... XD

[pprfaith.livejournal.com]

Nah. What do you think I went and googled yesterday after reading your post? I landed on the same list and pretty much had the same thoughts concerning the Doctor and Dexter. Serial killer doens't exactly make the list, imho.

[pprfaith.livejournal.com]

Speaking of:

Asexual!Cougar is love! (http://community.livejournal.com/losers_fic/56210.html#cutid1)

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

JFDKLA;HJFASDKL;DFJA;SKLDFJA; I'd almost forgotten that existed! :D Thanks. <3