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snowdarkred) wrote2010-12-01 11:56 am
snowdarkred) wrote2010-12-01 11:56 am
Sometimes, I just want to fucking hit people
Oh my god. Oh my god. I just. I hate people. I do. Jesus.
We're covering depression in my psychology, and we were talking about suicide and the reasons behind it and the gender differences behind it and blah blah blah.
So, there's this girl in the back who is one of the most obnoxious, know-it-all people I've seen since, well, high school. She has an opinion and story about everything. I mean, she just talks and talks and talks, which is annoying, but I can deal, because I work in a fucking restaurant, and I know how to deal with assholes. She sits far away from me and I'm happy with that.
Well, today. Oh god.
I've had bad, baaaad depressive episodes. I haven't attempted suicide, thank god, but there have been moments. I know I have a problem and I've gotten help for it in the past. I'm coping.
Anyway, we were talking about how women have more suicide attempts but men have more suicide successes - as in, women poison themselves and slit their wrists, and guys blow their brains out.
And Miss Obnoxious goes into this long spiel about how the reason for that is that women? Want attention. That's why women don't 'really try' to kill themselves. They don't. Really. Try.
Not because they're suffering. Not because they have a problem or problems. Not because they have a legitimate reason. No.
We women only play at suicide because we want attention. Hell, we need a fucking fainting couch, we're so fucking dramatic. I mean, we're women right? We get the vapors, don't ya know? Histrionics. Fuck, it's amazing we're even independent at all.
>:|
Yeah. Great. What a fantastic way to start my day, right? Jesus fucking Christ. Sometimes, I despair for humanity. Actually, no. Most of the time. Most of the time, I despair for humanity.
Fuck it. I'm going to go watch more Glee. I need a pick-me-up.
*****Warning: talk of suicide and suicidal thoughts*****
We're covering depression in my psychology, and we were talking about suicide and the reasons behind it and the gender differences behind it and blah blah blah.
So, there's this girl in the back who is one of the most obnoxious, know-it-all people I've seen since, well, high school. She has an opinion and story about everything. I mean, she just talks and talks and talks, which is annoying, but I can deal, because I work in a fucking restaurant, and I know how to deal with assholes. She sits far away from me and I'm happy with that.
Well, today. Oh god.
I've had bad, baaaad depressive episodes. I haven't attempted suicide, thank god, but there have been moments. I know I have a problem and I've gotten help for it in the past. I'm coping.
Anyway, we were talking about how women have more suicide attempts but men have more suicide successes - as in, women poison themselves and slit their wrists, and guys blow their brains out.
And Miss Obnoxious goes into this long spiel about how the reason for that is that women? Want attention. That's why women don't 'really try' to kill themselves. They don't. Really. Try.
Not because they're suffering. Not because they have a problem or problems. Not because they have a legitimate reason. No.
We women only play at suicide because we want attention. Hell, we need a fucking fainting couch, we're so fucking dramatic. I mean, we're women right? We get the vapors, don't ya know? Histrionics. Fuck, it's amazing we're even independent at all.
>:|
Yeah. Great. What a fantastic way to start my day, right? Jesus fucking Christ. Sometimes, I despair for humanity. Actually, no. Most of the time. Most of the time, I despair for humanity.
Fuck it. I'm going to go watch more Glee. I need a pick-me-up.
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I actually shuddered and cringed at this. After despairing about humanity I can not be serious with Glee. Glee *makes* me despair at humaniy most of the time. :S
Don't know what that girl thinks...or why...if its a mix of her wanting attention or not understanding how bad it can feel or be for some people.
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*sigh* I don't know what she thinks either, and I'm not sure I want to. I mean, really? Attention seeking? Did we travel back in time when I wasn't looking? Did the Doctor show up? Captain Kirk? Is Data around? Because I think we got screwed on what era we wound up in. :/
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Hehe, ah there are many many people still living with ideas from the past suicide issues just being one of the many.