Fic snippet:The Looking Glass, Reaper!Bones

[snowdarkred]

Title: The Looking Glass
Author: snowdarkred
Words: 333 about
Pairing/Rating/Warnings: Kirk/McCoy (duh, do I write anything else?), PG, a swear word, general depressing thoughts.
Author's Note: Hi, everyone! I wrote YET ANOTHER Reaper!Bones snippet. This one feels a little different from the others. (Note: The others could probably be taken as a series or whatever, but they weren't written to be that. This one is not in the 'same universe' as the others.) Also, I am actually working on a full length Reaper!Bones fic, but it's got nothing to do with this or the previous snippets.

| Exigent | Waking Up | Lives |

The Looking Glass

 

He stared in the mirror watching his own hazel eyes stare back at him. The thoughts kept spinning in his head, an instant replay of all things he had done wrong, done right, missed completely. If only he'd been faster, been strong, been who he used to be.
 

His body would never feel that same strength again or experience those same senses. He'd given it all up without a second thought, leaping at the idea of a reversal of the C-24's curse. He wanted to be normal again, but he hadn't bargained on what might happen. So while he could no longer bench-press six hundred pounds with unnatural ease, or race a cheetah and win without breaking a sweat, he was still alive.

 

He was no longer John “Reaper” Grimm, and when Jim was in his bed, wrapped up in his arms and safe, he didn't regret his decision. If he had remained as he was, he's life might never have taken the path it had, and he might never had met Jim. He almost couldn't imagine a universe where he and Jim never met, never shared drinks and a bed. So, no, at those moments, he didn't regret taking the “cure” that stripped him of everything but immortality.

 

But when the shit hit the fan and he was trapped within human parameters, he hated himself for giving it up. Because if he was just a bit faster or stronger or better, he would have been able to do something more. He could have saved that redshirt or this scientist. He could have save his Jim from his attackers. He could have reacted as John “Reaper” Grimm would have, with fists and guns and blood. But he shed his gift as soon as the opportunity presented itself, and not he was stuck within human parameters.

 

He looked at the hazel eyes in the mirror, and he wasn't sure who he wanted to be staring back at him.

 

Reaper or Bones?

 

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The usual: Tell me any thoughts, theories, muses, or whatever! I really do want to know!

Comments

[asakochan.livejournal.com]

That makes me depressed. T-T
Don't you hate that when you look in the mirror you have no idea who is looking back at you? I find that disterbing. xD

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

Sorry for making you depressed? I didn't mean to T.T And I definitely hate it when I don't know who's in the mirror. And poor John has been through enough that he would have a very hard time of it. John? Reaper? Bones?

[asakochan.livejournal.com]

Tis ok, I forgive you for. xD

(Nooo!!!! I'm being dragged away! T-T Why do they want me to go to the 99 cent store anyways?)

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

Nooo! *tries to grab you* *fails*

[weepingnaiad.livejournal.com]

Very interesting take on it! I can see him wanting the extra chromosome gone, but then missing it.

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[kilala10.livejournal.com]

Oh noes *hugs him/both*

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

*joins the hugging* He's just so much fun to write! Thank you for reading!

[pixelmayhem.livejournal.com]

Oh yes! I had wondered this thought myself when I read your previous snippets. I thought, "yes! a lifetime where they age together!" Which was VERY Rose/10.5 Dr.Who awww angsty for me. and then I thought, "but how can he be so quick to give it up? There is so much more he can do, what a help he can be!" So yay introspective angst!! Because it works so well, as much as John/Bones was indestructible and able to be faster/stronger/safer my personal canon has a lot of Jim not letting Bones do that anyway. Because Jim throws himself into danger. Indestructible best friend or not. I like a more even playing field (it allows for even more angst!) ;)

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I aim to please. ;D I love writing these. They're a bite 'o fun for me ;)

[mach1n3.livejournal.com]

Hurray angst! (is it bad that I think that? :P )I do have to feel sorry for Reaper!Bones (how could we not?) when he gives up everything for a more 'normal' life and ends up loosing just as much because of it.

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

It's perfectly alright. Hurray angst^2! Thank you for reading yet another Reaper!Bones snippet. I'm trying to work faster on the full length fic, but my other two xovers (one is the Matrix xover, the other is a His Dark Materials xover--I'm going to be known as That Chick That Writes All Those Crossovers soon *facepalm*). Reaper!Angst is too much fun to write *pets*

[mach1n3.livejournal.com]

I'm a huge fan of Reaper!Bones, and having many fics to pour over is great. I'm currently loving on your Matrix!AU (I'll keep my suspicions to the cause mood swings to myself) and really enjoyed that NCIS one of yours.

Yes, I'm stalking you.

Ahem, you can keep going with the Reaper!Angst, I'm certainly not going to stop you. :D

[snowdarkred.livejournal.com]

OMG, you're stalking me? I feel...honored ;)

I've certainly read your Reaper fics, and I love them! :D I absolutely love Reaper!Bones, each version of him. :) He's just so fun to play with.

And I'm really happy that people enjoyed m DC&RW. It was my first NCIS fic, and I'm pretty happy with how it turned out. :)

Guh, thank you!