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snowdarkred Word Count: ~700
Pairings: girl!Jensen/Cougar
Rating/Warnings: PG-13. Light swearing, sexual themes.
Author's Note: Movie!verse AU. Part of the alive with the glory of love 'verse. This is so sweet I thought my teeth were going to rot while I wrote it.
Summary: Jocelyn “Jake” Jensen makes Carlos “Cougar” Alvarez a list....
a list for your rainy days and lonely nights
I thought you hated me when I first came on the team. You were always looking, and to be honest? It creeped me the fuck out.
I was never more nervous, about anything, than I was when I introduced you to my sister and niece. Especially my niece. I wanted them to like you so bad, and I was terrified you wouldn't like them at all.
I haven't forgotten what Pooch said about me being a good mother. I want to find out if he's right.
There's no one else I'd rather find out with.
You drive me crazy when you do that thing with your lips while you line up your shots. Hot damn.
You're the only person I'll ever want at my back.
Remember when you walked in on me with that chick in the bathroom at that seedy bar in Moldova? I may have taken her back there on purpose. The look on your face is still one of my favorite expressions ever.
I lied about feeling sick that one day. I just wanted to lay in bed and cuddle.
(Thank you for pretending to believe me.)
I'll never leave you behind.
Those days at the doll factory next to you were what kept me sane after the shit storm in Bolivia.
One day, we're going to have that damn white picket fence, if I have to hack every government database from here to Moscow to do it.
I have a lot of fantasies involving your hat. We haven't even tried them all.
If it came between saving you and saving my niece, I'm sorry, but I would chose my niece.
You make me smile just by the tilt of your head.
When you asked me how I learned to shoot, I never answered. I'm not sure how to explain someone like my mother, and I never, ever want you to meet her. I don't think you'd survive the experience.
I wish Clay had never told any of you about what happened to me. I don't need pity, and I don't want anyone to treat me differently because of it. I was tempted to do more than just knee him in the groin, the bastard.
As much as I love it when you go down on me, I'd rather go down on you. You have no idea what sounds you make, do you?
I know you were the one who sent my niece that soccer ball. I'll achieve my goal of getting you into a Petunias shirt eventually. Even if I have to play dirty and have her ask. I know you'd do it if she begged you to.
You talking dirty Spanish is forever going to be one of the best experiences of my life.
Should I die, there's a box hidden in the back the closet of my sister's guest room. In it is all the things I couldn't tell you while I was still alive. I'm sorry I never worked up the courage.
I made you a mix tape once. Shut up, it's sweet and you know it.
I didn't think I'd fit in with the team. I'm so glad I did.
I'd rather dream of you than anyone else.
I miss Roque. Even after everything, I still find myself turning to say something snarky to him and then remembering... he's dead. And a traitor.
I know what you did to my old CO. I'd say thank you, but you know that I would much rather have done it myself.
You ripping that guy's ear off when he grabbed me... I'm not going to lie, that was some freaky shit. Thanks.
My greatest fear is that one day another sniper will get the jump on you, and I won't be able to get to you in time. Don't die on me. It's not allowed.
I love you.
If you don't propose to me soon, I'm going to propose to you. I know you're a traditionalist, so I'm giving you fair warning. Buck up and get on one knee already.
Oi. The levels of schmoop in this is ridiculous. The next one will either be super angsty or super cracky. I swear.
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Date: 2010-09-05 05:39 pm (UTC)Buck up and get on one knee already.
Omg! This made my day. Thanks~ *g*
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Date: 2010-09-06 03:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-09-05 05:40 pm (UTC)I love this universe so much, it's ridiculous.
♥♥♥
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Date: 2010-09-05 07:39 pm (UTC)Major warm fuzzies.
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Date: 2010-09-06 03:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-09-05 07:44 pm (UTC)They're awesome cavities. BESTEST CAVITIES EVER.
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Date: 2010-09-06 03:20 am (UTC)Wait, I already did!
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Date: 2010-09-06 12:35 am (UTC)I think I nearly imploded with cute when planning the concept of this. :P It certainly made me feel better, even if I typically feel embarrassed about writing schmoop, even though I enjoy it. I dunno why.
How's your visit going along?
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Date: 2010-09-08 04:10 am (UTC)*giggles* I'm sure. I can understand why you'd feel embarrassed, but it was an awesome story so don't feel embarrassed about that part :-)
I had a blast with Daren. We went to see Scott Pilgrim and to the bookstore and just had a good time hanging out. We won't discuss the stupidity of the car rental agency.
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Date: 2010-09-08 01:50 pm (UTC)It's starts out with an Eliot voice, and he's turned out harder to write than I imagined. Hm, maybe all rewatch a few episodes again. :3
:) It's always strange to find myself writing schmoop, since I'm such an angst whore. Like, it feels weird. I'm not sure what that says about me.
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Date: 2010-09-08 02:46 pm (UTC)He can be difficult to write, I understand that. I've had times where I've sat at the computer going "No! Talk to me! Me! That's not Eliot!" And just general like crankiness at the writing. It's always a chore to re-watch the episodes. (sarcasm)
Send it to me if you want a second opinion (you know my email right? I think we're tentatively scheduled to leave tomorrow, but it all depends oh what's going on. We kinda have to leave soon? The kids start school on Monday so we need to be back before then.
Hahaha no comment about you being an angst whore (or well frankly any type of whore). Not sure what I'm doing yet today, but I have like 15 emails to answer. (Bloody hell the buggers keep multiplying!) Anyway maybe then if I don't get interrupted I can get some writing done!
I should be around anyway.
Do you use/have AIM? I'm on there most of the time when I'm at my computer. rhiannon celtic
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Date: 2010-09-06 03:22 am (UTC)Yeah. It's funny, because it wasn't just Cougar - he, Clay and Roque ran into the guy on leave and had some fun. >:3 I'll get around to writing it eventually.
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Date: 2010-09-08 03:17 pm (UTC)This is exactly what I needed to read today :D
thanks for sharing!
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Date: 2010-09-08 03:58 pm (UTC)I love this verse. I've even worked out a way for them to stop Max. It might take awhile for them to get there though....
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Date: 2010-09-10 03:38 pm (UTC)that's so awesome!
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Date: 2010-09-20 12:44 pm (UTC)And now I really want that bathroom in Moldova!
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Date: 2010-09-20 07:20 pm (UTC)...And I may write it. <3